Journal Entry #4

    I started yesterday and today off by focusing on bible studies for depression and praying. I began using the Finch mental health app again, checking things off my to-do list and using some of their other features to access and help manage my depression symptoms. I also made sure to get out of the house with the kids, we went to pick up their new glasses and spent some time at the park. There were a lot of kids at the with this week being Spring Break for the public schools in the area. We ended up running into a child and his mother from my work, I didn't realize how much I really needed that interaction. 
    Today we loaded the 2 puppies up and took them to the pharmacy. They love going for rides especially when we stop somewhere with a drive thru because they have learned those places usually have treats for them. They even got to go into the dollar store and pick their own bag of treats on the way home, another favorite puppy activity. It wasn't much but, we've been cooped up so much the last few weeks battling illness it was nice to get out. 
    In addition to reincorporating the Bible studies, the Finch app, and getting out of the house, I've made sure to eat earlier in the day, focused more on getting the kid's school work done, and found a small chore each day to accomplish. Today we mopped the living room. We even took the time to watch a movie when we woke up to a gray and rainy morning. I made sure to turn the TV off after so we would accomplish our to-do list instead of falling prey to staring at the TV all day. 
    While all of these small acts and implementing routines has helped me this week, I won't say that I'm not still struggling. I still have feelings of not being enough, of being a failure, feeling stressed, and bouts of sadness. I know that if I can continue this routine, remind myself of the truths the Lord says about each of us, and focus on things I'm grateful for I will get back to a good place eventually. It may still be a good idea to reach out to a professional for some help, even if it's just to talk these feelings out and discuss some other coping skills to incorporate. I encourage anyone struggling with depression, anxiety, or any other mental health struggles to at least reach out for someone to talk it out with. If nothing else my inbox is always open, feel free to reach out for a sympathetic ear. 
    As always I appreciate everyone reading my posts, even if it's only 2 people lol. Please leave a comment to let me know if these journal entries are helping you. 

Today's prayer

Heavenly Father,

Thank you so much for loving each of us. Thank you for opening my eyes to how deep in the bowels of depression I had dived. Thank you for giving me the opportunity and ability to write this blog and share my story with others. Please forgive any sins I have committed and help to open my eyes to any sin I may have committed unknowingly so that I may repent. I ask that you wrap your loving arms around my family, as well as anyone reading this. I ask that the words you've given me reaches those they are intended for. I pray that anyone struggling with their mental health be healed by your hand, Lord. And ask that you continue to lead me in your ways and guide me on your path for my life.

In Jesus name,
Amen
    
    

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