Living Life

 
    I've come to realize faith is extremely important when it comes to thriving in life. It's taken a very long time for me to really understand what that means. My faith is constantly being tested. I have bad days, as I'm sure every one else does too. Many nights my joints are sliding around as I move in my sleep waking me up. If it's not my shoulder, hip, back, or knee, I'm having muscle spasms/jumps (I call it restless body lol). I take medication to help but, most nights it doesn't seem to help. The next day I'm usually very sore and have no motivation. 
   During those nights it's hard to focus on God and remember to have faith. I can remind myself all day every day, but when I'm woken up with pain I'm not focused. In those moments I wonder why I have to live this way? Did I do something to cause this? Will my symptoms get worse as I get older? 
   When I catch myself asking these questions while awake and alert I would push them out as quickly as they came in. I would tell my self my God has a reason for me to be here, in this body and this life. I may not know his reasons but He does. God doesn't give disabilities as punishment. I also know that worrying about my future is futile, there's no point, worrying about the future in the present is a waste of time. We're told over and over in the bible to trust God and not worry or fear. 
   I am a Christian, I believe in one God who sacrificed His Son for us to be freed from sin. I'm sure you probably know that already (Christian Zebra lol). My faith tells me God loves me unconditionally. It tells me He is a miracle worker. That He has placed me here for a reason. I show my faith by believing and trusting these truths. 
   I believe God can heal my chronic pain, my depression, and anything else He wants to heal. That doesn't mean He will but i choose to keep praying. Honestly my prayers of healing help ease the pain more often than not. I know even if my pain isn't physically gone here on earth one day I'll be with our Father in heaven with no pain for eternity. I remind myself of this often during my pain flares. I pray a lot, I verbally tell God i have faith and i know he is a miracle-worker and could heal me, but if this is something I have to go through I ask him for the strength to move on.
   It's not easy to keep your faith strong when it feels like you're constantly being attacked. No matter what you are struggling with find some where to place your faith. I've read so many studies that say people who have a belief system and their faith placed in a higher power live a more fulfilled life. If you are reading this as a Christian who hasn't been practicing regularly I'd like to challenge you to start a new bible study or just open your bible and start reading, make time throughout your day to stop and pray. Make the decision to stop letting all the negative thoughts fill your head, make yourself replace those thoughts with what you know God has to say about you. God says we are His children created in His image. He loves us so much he sent His son to die for us. He knew you before you were born and He's waiting for you to say yes to His Kingdom.  Make this your goal for the next 30 days- grow in your relationship with God, read his word more, pray more, stop your negative thoughts. Hopefully you'll see the difference after 30 days and keep going. If you get off track just pick it back up and start over. 

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  1. Brandy FMarch 28, 2020 at 11:40 AM

    Beautifully said! He never said it'd be easy, but He did say He is with us through it all! Love you! Proud of you!

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  2. The Christian ZebraMarch 28, 2020 at 1:04 PM

    Thank you!love you too!

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