The Christian Zebra

     Judgement, we’ve all been judged by someone at some point in time for some reason. We’ve all also passed judgement on others, whether you are willing to admit it or not, I’m sure you have. Those of us with chronic illnesses may see more judgement than some other people are privy to. In my life I have witnessed a lot of judgement. Judgement from Doctors that don’t have knowledge or experience with rare conditions. Judgement from peers and family who don’t know, and even some that have known, about the physical problems I’ve suffered. Judgement from people that only see the outside, they don’t see the pain, hear the racing, crazy thoughts depression can cause, the exhaustion that is always there no matter how much sleep you get, the fear of what the future will be for you.                                    I’ve seen others be unfairly judged by people that knew nothing about them. I witnessed a lot of judgement aimed at my mother after she was diagnosed with Early Onset

The world is a mess. I'm sure at least most people can agree with that statement. This past year has changed so much in so many people's lives. I have seen so much fear and anxiety being spread like wild fires. It has taken every bit of strength I've had to keep myself from being consumed by anxiety and depression. I have struggled through all of the uncertainty that I have felt, the fear, the voice in my head that tells me I'm not good enough and that things will not be okay. It has been a long road but I'm finally starting to live my truth. I will not let myself worry so much. I have faith. I know that it won't always be easy, but I will keep trying every day. This time last year I had so much hope. I was healing spiritually, physically, and mentally. I was volunteering at church and excited to see what else God would call me to do. It was all taking a toll on me, but it felt worth all the tiredness and extra aches and pains. Of course all of that was t